A New Me?

So, after 5 months of mommyhood, I have to admit that I was expecting something much different than the reality that is my new life. Don't get me wrong, I love everything about being a mom, and wouldn't change a single thing; but I am struggling to rediscover my old self in this new lifestyle. Since we got the call from the doctor that it was time to head to the hospital everything has been upside down.

Cleanliness is next to godliness? If that's the case, then I'm going to hell! Our living room looks like the stomping ground of a baby war zone. While I'm sure that's perfectly normal, its my lack of motivation to keep things clean and tidy that I think might not be normal. Yes, I try to clean, but really its nothing like my old Hotel George standards where the house was scrubbed from top to bottom. Now everything has a hefty coating of dust, bathrooms are dirty, laundry is piled as high as Mt. Everest, and I don't think I've vacuumed in a month. To be frank, everywhere I look there's work to be done and I honestly don't care. I feel tired, and ragged, worn down and just plain old. I'm nearing 30 in a few weeks and my body aches like I'm 50. Maybe from the extra weight that I unrealistically thought would miraculously disappear? Possibly from the perpetual sleep deprived state I now live in? Whatever the case might be, it sucks.

Tubby Wubby

I know now that I had extremely high expectations going into post-pardum. After the near picture perfect pregnancy, rebounding back into my old figure (or better) was going to be a piece of cake. Days, weeks and months have slipped by, and well, I'm still waiting for that to happen... The glaring truth of the matter is I know I should be working out, but I can't find the motivation to actually do it. I tell myself every Monday, this is going to be the week to get back into a workout routine. The week flies right by and I've gained another couple of pounds. See, I associate working out with, well, work (and I work enough as it is). 40 hours a week in the office; all the other hours of the week as a mom and wife. I struggle to find 10 free minutes a day, and when I do, the last thing I want is to workout. I want to sit my tush on the couch, eat some comfort food and mentally check out.

Its time for a change. Its time to reinvent me.

4 Month Update

This month has been so much fun! The kids are little chatter boxes, D laughs like crazy, A is mastering the art of rolling all the way over, and most notable; the two of them have become much more interactive with each other. Here's a couple of recent shots at playtime - twins style.

As a kid, summer always marked ice cream and running through the sprinklers, so I figured its time to start those memories for the twinnies (even if they won't remember them yet). So I snagged an inflatable pool to introduce them to non-bathtime water, mostly because I love their bathing suits. Turns out they like it! I may have to get them into swim lessons next year.

A couple of weeks ago marked the beginning of solid foods for the kiddos. Rice cereal aka cardboard mush. Even with applesauce or bananas to make it tastier the outcome has been the same.

D - beyond pissed

A - royally confused

Big Milestone

For the last couple of weeks the kids have mastered the art of rolling over onto their tummies. In true twin fashion, I was able to catch them doing it in tandem. Maybe I should get them into synchronized swimming??

3 Months

Official pics of the twinnies at 3 months. For the record, there is a shocking lack of purple clothing available for boys. Thank god for Old Navy and double sided tape!

The Latest

Jungle life has definitely been busy. The kids are doing well and growing like weeds. D is our little chow hound and is constantly hungry. The kid has a hollow leg (I'm already afraid for the teenage years). As a result of his voracious appetite, he's growing faster than his sister. I'll be interested to see what their 4 month appointment stats will be. Lil A is our sweet petite and recently turned drama queen. She goes from happy to pissed in a flat second. On a positive note, she has been sleeping like a champ! Shes usually ready for bed around 8 and sleeps through the night...amazing! Her brother, on the other hand, has only managed to do that twice so far. I guess its true that boys develop slower than girls. Fingers crossed he catches on soon.

Big D is prepping for the fall rugby season at the Air Force Academy. He'll be driving down to the springs once a week plus games. While he'll still be on the road, it's a much shorter commute than Ft. Collins, so I'm happy about that.

Now that its mid summer, the temperatures here in Denver have been slowly creeping up into the mid 90's & 100. Since the back of the house faces west, our main level just cooks in the afternoons. After many sweaty evenings on the patio, we decided that a retractable awning would be a good addition. That was just installed yesterday and its already made a huge difference. We opted for the biggest size available...a whopping 20' x 12'. The thing looks like a sail! I'm not complaining though. If it will keep the house cooler I'll be a happy girl!

Crafty

In my final days and weeks at home I've been feeling like my old crafty self. Since accessorizing my lil peanut is the funest thing ever, its become apparent that I need a way to manage her growing collection of bows and clips (instead of just tossing them on the dresser). With a little fabric and a lot of modge podge, I was able to make these fabulous little gems. Hello hair clip holder!

2 Months

Here's a quick update from our 2 month mark.

The kids are doing well. Their checkup resulted in ideal results, 2 healthy (albiet colicky/refluxy) babies. They had their first series of shots which honestly was horrific. I don't see why they think its ok to stab an infant with 4 shots at once; they don't even provide that level of torture to adults! Otherwise, things are great.

They still wake about every 3 hours to eat, and aren't sleeping through the night yet, although princess is starting to show signs of a longer sleeping pattern (thank god!). Her brother just needs to follow suit. Our days are filled with tons of excitement - a morning walk (weather permitting), tummy time & swinging, sitting outside for some fresh air and lots of classic rock (and the occassional daytime soap opera). D still has an enormous head and A has a set of pouty lips & really long eyelashes. Big news this week is that they have both started smiling!! =D

While I know I'll have to return to work in a few short weeks, I'm enjoying every second of being a temporary stay at home mom. If anyone has any clever ideas on how I can make that a permanent thing, I'm open to suggestions.

Big smile for mom...warms my heart! <3

First visit with Gramps


Feeling fabulous with Gram

Already acting like a big kid.

Loving sissy's bouncy chair